paper tambourine crunching beneath my feet the the beat in the mess that we left in this trail of love that needs no clean up yes, my heart's been blessed with a treacherous torturous ache no mistakes I won't try to change it. I'll embrace this real pain cuz it was given to me by somebody who is cooler than all the other men but the thing about you and the thing about me is we live in different galaxies so what do you do with a love you can't see through? and what do you say to a lover who cannot stay? back and forth I am brave I'm a coward I have faith. I can't make out how this will work it gets harder, then it's easier so I'll love you from afar, won't protect my heart let it be, let it breathe, love openly doesn't have to be a suffocating monogamy plus I'm not really ready to be getting heavy anyway so it's a gift that it is like this and it was given to me by somebody who is cooler than all the other men so what do you do with a love you can't see through? and what do you say to a lover who cannot stay? paper tambourine crunching beneath my feet the the beat in the mess that we left in this trail of love that needs no clean up

It's 3am, par for the course I'm wide awake and since the morning I haven't known what to say Just like a train, follow the day hour by hour Waiting for something to change I'm suspicious of my loneliness Trying not to use, but I keep smoking cigarettes Watching myself like a stranger from the dark side of the room No sudden moves I think that I don't want to care anymore about how it goes Don't even know what I'm hoping for Say what you want about Last Resorts Either way, either or, don't want to care anymore I'll pick you up an hour after you've gone to bed Sorting through the long days that we spend up in our heads Grieving all the little things we're trying to transcend shifting from grey to red Why does it feel like we keep losing every war? Why does my perspective always need to be scraped up off the floor Thank God there's always you getting me from 2 to 3, from 3 to 4 I think that I don't want to care anymore about how it goes Don't even know what I'm hoping for Say what you want about Last Resorts Either way, either or, don't want to care anymore

Winter settling in my veins, I miss the sun Winter, makes it harder to feel sane, I miss the sun And it aint easy for my body to be comfortable all the time I gotta layer up, and be prepared as fuck and exercise Winter, drawing out the dark poetry Winter, makes me wanna be in your arms endlessly, endlessly Seasonal resistance, I gotta get my friends to be persistent Don't Let Go, Be Patient There's another summer coming, we're gonna make it Winter, freezing off the parts that I don't need I shiver, as I die and start to dream of better things I am haunted by old habits that I don't need anymore and as I try to withstand the world with my new faith I hear them tapping at my door Family comes together once again, here we go Finally I am better than last year, what do you know? what do you know I am happy in the harder weather, oh because I respect the sun so much better when I've earned it and we've earned this one Winter, settling in my veins, I miss the sun

Spring is Here Less resistance Always harder in the winter Out for walks now I feel the ground soft, beneath my feet No more mittens thanks got for this I am healing now And you'd say, "it's better off this way" and you'd say, "that's the nature of change" Maybe you're right Maybe this'll be the year things really take off Still wish you were here Oh a lot died this year Sometimes, forget my heart's still here How do the trees stay alive when it's freezing I learn a lot from them, you know How they bend and always grow Never try suicide, though they're always letting go Can I be bear? Without you there, covering me like leaves And you'd say, "it's better off this way" and you'd say, "that's the nature of change" Maybe you're right Maybe this'll be the year things really take off Still wish you were here Push through the coldest doubt Oh, and it's easy now Push through till the sun comes out Oh, and it's easy now

Are you ready to begin? Cuz I am going to teach you how to drown I am gonna push you in and I am going to steal away the sound of you screaming for help you're screaming for help No option of control or choice No directing your own life with intelligence and consciousness is all you've got left consciousness is all you've got left You are going to sink cuz the ocean is too big and strong for you to fight so accept the fact that you are going to You are going to sink cuz the ocean is too big and strong for you to fight so accept the fact that you are going to die Crawl The price you pay to see me crawl is so great cuz you keep paying for a front row seat The price you pay to see me crawl is so great cuz you know you're too scared to follow me Badadadadada dum What's real is bubbling up to the surface and now I know and now I know and now I know that all long we were superheroes with no knowledge of how to harness our powers so we became cowards and she sang "Every time you close. door and nothing opens in its place you waste it If shining wisdom passed your lips and travelled to the ears of god you'd waste it" Oooh Chorus Bridge Please come home - friends want friends to be honest friends Please come home - I'm only resilient in other galaxies and I don't think this is the end Jesus, must you betray me with a kiss? You are going to sink You are going to sink You are going to sink You are going to you are going to you are going to you are Chorus and the ocean is to big and strong for you to fight so accept the fact that you are going to die